It's been awhile. I've had a few people jokingly ask me why I haven't written lately!
Things are busy here…but SO good.
I have started many new posts and they have gone unfinished.
I started writing about how funny it is that the Pope is such a rock star and Jesus is so offensive. All the Pope is doing is trying to be like Jesus and encourage others to do the same.
I started writing one about abortion and how the desire for a baby does not determine it's "babiness." But to be honest, I am too sleep deprived and short on long stretches of time to thoughtfully write about the heartbreaking fact that so many see abortion as the only option for an unplanned pregnancy.
I started writing a post about the summer we just had and the incredible number of times I sat back and just wanted to hold onto a moment forever. We had so many joy-filled times - with both family and friends that I just want to praise and thank God for them. Bless the Lord.
But today, I want to testify to God's faithfulness.
I was invited to lead worship for our church's Fall Retreat for junior high students.
A few years ago, I decided that leading worship was something I could always say "yes" to (as long as it worked for our family), because it is something God has called me to do. Despite having a 3 month old and 3 other kiddos, I said "yes." It meant we all got to go out to the beautiful Castaway Club in Detroit Lakes, MN.
It is true that I have been a Director of Student Ministries before - in what seems like another life - but I was nervous.
As soon as I said yes to this opportunity to serve God, I immediately thought, "Oh Lord, what did I just get myself into?" And then came the host of excuses and fears:
I don't even know what junior high kids are like anymore.
How can I possibly relate to these young people?
I don't think I'm goofy enough anymore.
What if they don't like what I'm wearing?
What if they don't think I'm cool?
And there I was…back in junior high! Or at least the days of youth ministry when I would go have lunch with students at school and worry about who I would sit with! Ahh, how our insecurities can keep us off center!
I was relying on God for this one.
My family came out with me - my husband being the most supportive spouse on the planet and best dad ever - watched our kids while I got to lead 250 junior high students in the worship of the One True God!
Let me tell you, God totally showed up. The students sang, they worshiped, they heard the Word of God spoken into their lives and they were encouraged to step out in faith and live lives worthy of the calling they have received in Jesus.
All of this to say:
God is faithful.
He alone drew these students to Himself and prepared them for what they would experience.
He used many faithful adults who are passionate about Him, love kids and desire to help them know Him more. I'm guessing most of us felt ill-equipped for a weekend surrounding the topics of sex, drugs, alcohol and self-harm; yet God is faithful.
At the end of the weekend, after the students heard about God's pursuing grace and how it gives them a fresh start, they walked down to the beach. At the waters edge, these students knelt down with their leaders, faithful adults who spent their weekend praying for and interacting with these students, and they received the renewal that comes when the grace of God pours into your life.
God is faithful.
In my doubts,
In my questions,
In my second-guessing,
In my fears
In my trials,
God is faithful.
Why is He faithful? Because it's not about me...it's about Him.
Because God is faithful, we don't have to wonder how much these students will put into practice all that was taught or how it will impact their lives; God's word promises that His words will not return void; they will accomplish the purpose for which He sent them.
God is able and God is faithful.