Here's my truth: I'm 34 weeks pregnant.
I have checked the last "must do's" off the "to-do" list before the baby comes!
Ready to meet this little guy.
Ready to see what kind of baby he'll be!
Ready to give him a name!
Ready to introduce him to his siblings!
Ready for so much of what is to come…the Lord has done great things for us!
Yet, this readiness comes with a little mourning for me personally.
The investment, the energy, the lack of energy, the fact that my schedule is not my own, the lack of time for doing anything I might want to do - these make me selfishly mournful.
That's my truth.
God blessed me this winter. He gave me many awesome opportunities to speak and to lead worship; to meet some beautiful women and spend time getting to know them! Honestly, it felt like God took me off the shelf and allowed me to serve Him, doing what I was made to do.
Yes, I know I was created to be a mom and a wife and more, but these opportunities spoke to my desire to serve Him with the gifts He's given me.
I am so grateful for each opportunities and I completely recognize them as God's gift to me during a season of His choosing.
It was His way of saying, "I know things are about to get crazy. Let me remind you who you are and what I've created you to do."
Thanks, God. I needed that and I didn't even know to ask for it!
As I have studied the life of Moses in Bible Study Fellowship this year, one thing has struck me over and over.
Moses has been leading this uncooperative, ungrateful group of Israelites toward the Promised Land for some time. Honestly, I would have ditched them long ago, but not Moses.
The Israelites have just had another bout with disobedience and Moses cries out to God.
If you had reached your limit...
If you didn't think you could possibly take on another thing…
If you heard words from a doctor, a friend or a spouse that would change your life forever…
What one thing would you ask God for?
In Exodus 33:13 Moses asks God for one thing: "If You are pleased with me, teach me Your ways so I may know You and continue to find favor with You."
Moses has reached his limit!
Of all the things Moses could have asked for, the one thing he does ask for is to know God more.
It is Moses' desire to know God more in each and every circumstance that comes his way. Disobedient Israelites, hunger, thirst, feelings of being directionless, feeling lost - the prayer of Moses resonates "teach me Your ways so I may know You."
I want this to be the one thing I desire in the face of all the circumstances that come my way. I can foresee some of my upcoming circumstances: sleepless nights, sleepless days, a 2 year old having a hard time adjusting to a baby brother, busy summer schedules, sleepless nights, challenging feeding schedules, making dinner, feeling like God could never possibly use me again. But I can't foresee them all!
Whatever the circumstance: Lord, teach me Your ways so that I may know You.
What about you?
What kind of circumstances might you face this over the next few days/weeks/months?
What might God want you to know about Himself through those circumstances?
Do you think your relationship with Him could grow because of circumstances you didn't choose for yourself?
In fact, I believe it's through our challenging circumstances that God does His most transforming work in our hearts and lives.
That's really what Moses was inviting God to do.
"If You are pleased with me, teach me Your ways so I may know You and continue to find favor with You."
Moses wasn't asking God for more information.
Moses was asking God to transform his heart and his life through experiencing who God is and what He does.
Through trusting God's provision because Moses had experienced it.
Through relying on God's grace because he had desperately needed it and gratefully received it.
Moses wanted to know God more and more and let God work in his heart and life like only He could work.
Maybe you're wondering how God responded to Moses' request:
The Lord replied, "My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest."
God promised Moses His Presence through these circumstances and not only that, but He promised that His Presence would be enough to give Moses rest. Despite the challenges Moses would face (and there would be many…which is why I would have ditched them!), God would be present with him and that Presence would be all Moses would need to find rest and to really know Him.
So this summer, whatever my circumstance, I will pray, "If You are pleased with me, teach me Your ways so I may know You!"
And chances are, if I'm praying for you this summer, I'm praying that you would know God better through whatever your circumstance.
How about you? What one thing are you asking God for?